4 Week Natural Program Journal – Day 19
Last day at the hostel, said goodbye to 2 english girls at the hostel, and got their instagrams, they were leaving Australia tomorrow, but said they were going to sidebar tonight I didn’t see them there when I went later. I had to hang around the hostel till like later since I had a 6pm checking at the new place in Ultimo, its closer to central station. When I left I felt something different walking to the new place, there were so many people and it was crowded, I felt trapped and unwelcome to talk to whomever I please like normal. I was lugging around a huge bag and made it extra hard to stop and talk to anyone. First thing I notice about my new area is its mostly Uni students, the airbnb host was french or something, friendly but old and not very sexy. I could tell just from how she is she wouldnt like me bring back guests, but she seems to get home at 6 and wake up early, so maybe she will never notice!
This place was a lot nicer than my older place near kings cross, I already miss the deadbeat cross. Went to do some shopping, came back got dressed then went out early cause I really had nothing else to do. Decided to hit side bar early, I felt like I looked very good, and felt free as before I was constrained by my luggage. Every set was sticking so well, for like 6 girls in a row, I got a close of some sort, even if they had boyfriend, I didnt do it for the sake of closing, I felt special and connect to each girl, if the girl was single I got her number, taken I got her instagram. Some girl smiled at me out the front of the hostel, spoke to her for a bit, she was so keen, convinced her to come get a drink with me she had to go upstairs to get passport, messaged my phone from hers, she had an English number. I never got the message…. Did I not put my number in properly? I never saw her again ffs When I went to scubar I got a drink, and said to some girls at the bar I owned the bar, pretty outrages thing to say, these girls were american, and for some reason believed it haha, well maybe they didnt, but they were sure inquisitive about it. But I really meant I emotionally owned the bar, silly girls.
Scubar was a bit tame so I headed to sidebar, I felt like I was doing pretty damn well, I was on program tonight and was waiting for alex to come, alex told me to focus on using statements of empathy and giving the girl lots of compliments right off the open. Alex got me and another student to open some girls whom were with a guy he recognised as an ex-student. He said just go in and be friendly, I think the idea was he didnt know the girls so we could shadowlord him. What happened was different girls were dismissive, and he got aggressive, I was saying cool you guys have fun cya, girls would say something rude, and it made me wanna show them thats not what I meant. So I was like no have a good night, just was passing by, and then the guy got really aggressive, so I walked off like I was going to anyway. God knows what happened there, then alex said something like that should never happen, I must have been not understanding them. Alex told me to do what he said, and simply just mean it.
After that I was a little confused, but went about my night anyway. Tonight was more dead than usual, and all the hot girls were surrounded by guys, but that wasnt really gonna stop me. I wanted a swedish girl I had met earlier, opened her and her group a few times, was difficult as It was so loud and she was getting lots of attention. Later when I talked to her outside, It was like a million times easier to talk to her, she turned all of her attention and body away from the guy she was talking too. But it was lockout soon, so I had to get back in, so walked off with her instagram planning to reapproach later, which I didn’t for some reason or another, dont think I ended up seeing her again. Spoke to some Norwegian girls, one of them pushed me away pretty aggressively, very unlike Norwegian girls I think, they dont normally do shit like that. But I assume something that had happened, that obviously was out of my control. Alex went off with some, he got me to approach, I thought she was lovely and was quite into me, but turns out she loved alex. I felt very dissapointed about tonight, it was like I felt like nothing could get me down early on, and something happened that didnt click, combined with the fact I had a very solid rate of pulling on the program thus far, so I might putting too much pressure on myself.
