4 Week Natural Program Journal – Day 10
This was my last night in my current accommodation before I move to a less desirable location, a hostel. I will be there for 8 nights, then Ill move back to actual accommodation, which is listed as no visitors, but im gonna pull there if I get the chance anyway, I will take the risk. I woke up feeling pretty good knowing I just got a same day lay as a pretty direct result of the stuff alex has said already. So I was in a mood of I dont really care what happens, im good. The Norwegian girl I brought home my first night of program I closed was texting me, I met up with her and her friend, with some random guy I literally just met with a friend. She was a bit silent at first, meh whatever. They were drinking a bottle of wine I drank some of it. Bought the Norwegian girl and myself a drink. At the bar she got offended at something I said, and was being rude after that. It wasnt even offensive its like she was looking for an excuse to be a bitch… I said okay im going to meet my friends so I have to go. They had no idea what they were doing, so I decided to bring them… big mistake, on the way she was just being a bitch. Even her American friend was like I dont know wtf is wrong with her.
Soon as we got to the venue I was like your buying me a drink, and she got mad, then I just left her. I was in a little bit of a lame mood now, I had been drinking quite a bit too. I went and approached some girls, talked to seany alex and some of the other guys. Later saw the girl speaking to different guys, clearly touching them, nothing I wouldn’t do to be honest, but I defiently held back because she was there. Anyway, at this point I should of just let her be, but I approached a few more times, just getting shit back from her, nothing positive. Very immature lady, im not very enthusiastic about writing this field report so its very lacking… But ive made the commitment to write them for each day. At the end of the night, she was with some guys, spoke to her, she didnt really want to talk to me, but it seemed like she was getting a bus that would take her like 90 mins to get home lol. It got brought to my attention we were all getting a taxi, so I said goodbye, and she went to hug me and kissed me on the cheek, but I could see she did so very non playfully like she didnt really want too.
Later on went to some secret venue, had another drink, talked to the lads for a bit. On the way home spoke to a French Belgium girl while we were both walking the same way. But nothing too special came of that, the whole night when I was talking to other girls I was lacking something I normally have, rough night for me, owell the more uncomfortable and worse nights I have the more I learn and realise stuff about myself.
